A couple weeks ago, as I was scrolling through my instagram feed, I saw that an artist by the name of Leanne was having a sale on her digital doodle commissions, so obviously I scooped up one for myself! This morning, I woke up to a DM of my finished commisson, and yall…it’s perfect! The photo that I submitted to her has so much sentimental value to me. It marks a period of painful transformation, of healing from trauma, and learning from my mistakes.
I had just released all toxicity from my life. Mainly toxic people.
And detox is HARD.
It is a painful, gutwrenching process, coming face to face with your own demons and acknowledging the hurt and pain you caused the ones you love, the ones trying to save you from the toxicity. I felt alone, isolated and unsure who I could trust. I am thankful everyday for the family and friends who came to me with their concerns. It let me know that it wasn’t just in my head, as I was lead to believe. I was trying desperately to find myself, and instead ended up losing myself completely. This photo, this moment in my history, documents when I found myself again. In an endless field of sunflowers. With some incredibly supportive and loving friends by my side offering me strength and love.
It was this moment when I knew that I was going to be okay. That I’m stronger than those who have ever caused me harm. I work everyday to be a better person then I was the day before, and that means a LOT of introspection and looking within. Of realizing and correcting mistakes, breaking patterns. Being vulnerable and openly communicating. Forever thankful for the beautiful, loving and strong people in my circle. And thankful for this photo to be immortalized into this lovely piece of art that I will forever cherish.
With So Much Love,